Calming myself down October 18, 2005
Posted by spacemom in : Depression, Dr. Jay , trackbackI had a nice quiet lunch today. Dr. Jay and I ate at a nice restaurant and talked. Since we work at the same place, we have 2 days a week that we go out for lunch. It is like having a mini-date. I like that. It gives us time to reconnect. Dr. Jay mentioned that my worry jar is full. I said yes, but then amended that statement to say it was full, but only because things are a mess in there. If I rearrange it, there will be room. Somehow, I am not mananging well right now.
Take the poster for the meeting for example. Right now, I am letting a code run to pull information out of my files to prepare for the poster. I worry that I won’t get the poster done. But that is SILLY. OF COURSE, I’ll get the poster done. I have no choice. It may not be as complete as I want, but it will get done.
Packing? Not worried. Well, I was, but then I realized that since it is Fall in New England, and summer in Hawaii, it will be easier to pack that normal. Getting to the airport? Not a problem. I am going to call for a taxi service because parking is so high at the airport that a taxi will be cheaper over all. Car in Hawaii? Not a problem, Dr. Jay worked out with the adminstrative gods so we can rent a mini-van and we will pay the extra costs out of the travel reimbursements at the end of the trip. Kids? Not a problem. They love travel, the airplane may be tough, but as long as I keep my humor, I should be fine. They will LOVE the trip. I had worried as someone emailed me about this resort not being good for little kids. Once I looked at the website, I understood why. Tons and tons of programs for kids 5 and up. Nothing really for little kids. BUT, there is a monorail to travel around the complex. And BOATS to travel I can see my kids riding the boats all day long. And the pools….Soleil is learning how to swim, so I can see her having a ball and Luna loves the water. We also want to take the girls to Kona, let Soleil learn more about mommy’s drug of choice, COFFEE! and she wants to see if the letters fit on a coconut tree.l We told her that you can EAT coconut and she was excited…
So why is my worry jar full? I am working on that. I think that I have all of these issues stored up in my brain and instead of taking them one by one and placing them in the jar, I am shoving the whole lot in the jar, like throwing crumpled paper in. What a mess!
I started at lunch to take the worry jar down and work on cleaning it up. Just writing these things out have helped a great deal. Deciding on the taxi company helped (I now have to call) and to get my dentist appointment out of the way helped.
So I am in the process of deep breathing, and sorting out the worry jar. I told Dr. Jay that I need to figure out how to keep up with life. He asked what that meant. I said that I think it means just enjoying what we have and to lower the worries…
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Okay, I confess, I’m the one who made ya worry about “under 5″. Apparently, the magical number for many places is 5. We also looked very closely at the same place you’re going, but ended up with a private house on Kuaui. We figure any fits at dinner time will be less embarassing in a house, rather than a nice restaurant.
I’m a worry wart of the N-th degree, so I feel your anxiety.
Another fellow worry-wort here… I feel your pain. I swear there are a million things every day that need worrying about. I’m trying to get better tho, and hope you can take it down to a manageable level too.
For the Hawaii hotel, as long as they have a pool and you have plenty of sunscreen the kids will be fine. I remember all the trips we took with my folks and we never did any programs or group things. We just hung out with my parents and did what they did - bobbing in the water, swimming in the pool, pretending to boogie board, eating pineapple and donuts for breakfast, all that stuff. It was great. You’ll have a great time! Enjoy!
Um, *you* are a worrier??? Oh I have you beat hands down. I could worry the paint off a wall.
You will have a fabulous time in Hawaii. How can you not- you’ll be in *Hawaii*!!