Wow, I wonder constantly where life goes and how it goes so fast?

First things first, T-shaped girl is a MOM! Did ya hear that? A MOM! I am so psyched! She looks so happy with her little girl! I am sure she will post photos when she gets back in the US.

My girls are keeping me busy. Last night I wasted my time reading a dumb novel called "The confessions of Super Mom" If you are interested in it, let me tell you, Don’t waste your time! A friend told me it was bad, but then lent it to me anyway. I needed some brain candy as the Cowboys were on TV (ugh, have I mentioned I am from Buffalo? Anyone remember the Bills and the Cowboys in the early 90s? Anyone?, Enough said!)
The girls had worn me down during the day. Monday is my day home with them. Luna still thinks she is Soleil’s age and size. It kills me. Soleil thinks she can run outside without a parent. I had to pull out the "I am so disappointed" mommy voice. She was upset for over a half of an hour… I didn’t yell, just used THE VOICE.

I am working on a project at work where I am taking someone’s photon model and converting it to a C library.* Can’t use C++, that would be too easy. Did the person give us the Makefile? No, that would be too easy. Any record of what libraries he uses? No! Again, that would make this EASY for me.
So here I am, trying to run a piece of code that has NO makefile, just the source and the executable. UGH! and double UGH… I need some caffeine (coffee just finished brewing) and some relaxation!

I keep thinking about something Amber wrote. It really resonates with me. Dr. Jay is Jewish. I am agnostic at best. However, he and I talked about kids and religion early on and he wanted the kids to be Jewish. That is fine with me. We have a Jewish household, we do the Jewish holidays, but somewhere, I miss something. Things are not natural for me. I need to constantly work with Dr. Jay to figure out what sort of stuff I need to know for my kids. It took me a long time to be OK with going to visit my family during the Christmas season. We tell our kids that we are helping my family celebrate Christmas. It is what people do. They help others celebrate holidays even if they don’t believe… But somehow, I wonder what they are missing by me not being Jewish….

*If you don’t understand this, don’t worry. It’s a programming thing. My former job was software engineer and part of the justification of getting a promotion this year was to do this programming job. It would help if the guy from MIT would actually respond to my emails… but NO, no no again, that would be too easy