Weather is here…. May 3, 2006
Posted by spacemom in : Depression , 2 comments"The Weather is here, I wish you were beautiful"….Jimmy Buffett
I am in a very bad place right now. I can’t quite understand it. Some days, I wonder why I bother to get up, but I have 2 kids to drive my out of bed even if it is to cries of "Applesauce Mommy!" The lack of me is really getting to me right now. I know, I know, that sounds so weird. Seriously, I wonder how much is the weekends. Dr. Jay has joined our temple’s softball team. The Temple Isaiah Red Lox (yes, the puns are amazing). Every Sunday morning, he has a game. Add to that, he is a switch player between teams 1 (the good traveling team) and team 2 (the not so good, play 10 minutes from home team). Sunday, he was traded twice between the teams, causing him to be late for a game that was 30 minutes from home because, for an hour, he was on the second team. But I digress. I have the girls every Sunday morning this summer. All summer. Plus all Monday, Plus Saturday we do things together, so my "me" time is way way down.
Last night, I went to bed right after Luna went to sleep (after her 30 minute scream because I refused to let her open the dishwasher for the sole purpose of throwing dirty utensils around the kitchen because she was mad at me for taking away her drink that had to be consumed in the kitchen). I watched the end of my hockey game and then found this movie on the IFC. The game was fun, but lacked the excitement I needed. The movie was beyond depressing. I love European films because they are so REAL.
But I couldn’t sleep. I feel detached from the world right now. Not sure why? Just am.
I hate these posts. I feel like I am whining, but on the other hand, this is who I am.
Sigh. I may have scored a chandelier on Craigs’ list. ANYTHING is better than THIS that hangs in our dining room!
