On Thursday, I had a long time at the meeting. This was the day I had to get my poster up by 10, get to several talks by co-workers, and I had a mandatory poster session from 6-8pm. I had arranged for Dr. Jay and my parents to take the girls to Disney to have breakfast at the Polynesian Hotel with Lilo and Stitch (and Mickey Mouse and that BASTARD Pluto*). I got them all off by 9am. Then I put up my poster, talked to some co-workers and went to the breakfast buffet. For $20, I got endless coffee, OJ and all of the fresh fruit, waffles, Krispy Kremes**, oatmeal and cereal that I could stuff in. And I read a newspaper. Yes, I did all of this without a person asking for my food, standing in a chair, asking for information on the Titanic… It was BLISS.
In this time, I realized that I had not had a long trip for ME. When Luna was 6 months old, Dr. Jay and I went to a meeting in San Diego. I had panic attacks about leaving the kids and I actually moved my flight later so I could stay longer with them. This has been my ONE and only trip without the kids. I miss me time. The thought of staying at a hotel, resting, eating at my leisure, ah, pure bliss. I talked to Dr. Jay about it and told him how I was jealous. Jealous that he gets to go to meetings and get this quiet time. He said he feels guilty about it because he does indulge the first 3 days. Then he gets lonely.
I was planning on going to Prague this summer. I don’t think it will happen. Luna is not ready for both mommy and daddy to disappear for a week. That bites because I really wanted to go. We are now looking into a meeting in Pasadena. I might go in November to that meeting just to get that me time. Maybe… Maybe…
I love being a mom, but I really never got the break I needed. When we had just Soleil, we finally got into a rhythm and I got pregnant (thankfully) with Luna. Then I took naps instead of me time. Now I need to just be me.
Maybe Becky and I can meet this summer. We have talked about meeting half way by and outlet mall for a weekend.
We will see.
And Prague will wait for another year…
*Pluto was the first character in and snuck up on Luna and put his big furry paws over her ears. Apparently she lost it for the whole 2 hours of breakfast. Remind me to kick Pluto in the nuts the next time I see him.
** Dunkin’ Donuts are MUCH better than Krispy Kreme.