Daytime drama September 20, 2006
Posted by spacemom in : Life...otherwise, Spacemom, Home wreckers , add a commentI stayed home today painting the master bedroom. Good news, I got the two walls painted that I had planned on. Bad news? I still have two to go!
Since work has been crazy, this has been the first possible week in months that I could take off to do this painting. I was told by my bosses that I might be needed at work this week. Okay, so I am checking my email every morning. This morning’s email was that my co-worker’s daughter had a regular checkup yesterday and her 37 week pregnancy is over. No heartbeat.
This hit me hard. I know R was really excited about his first granddaughter. But I think it hit hard in other ways. I had two losses while building the space family. Luckily for me, they were early. Crazy H lost her son late, 32 weeks. I can’t compare the two pains and griefs because they just are so different. At 8 weeks, I had dreams for Pathfinder. At 32 weeks, H had felt her son.
This really ripped through me this morning and I switched my TV watching while painting from TLC to the History Channel. It was much easier to watch 3 hours of adult dying than it was to watch 3 hours of baby stories today. I think of the terrors I had at 33 weeks with both girls, I was in the hospital in May with Luna. Fighting contractions. Everybody looking at me with this pained look, "oh, you’re 33 weeks"..
I remember willing the contractions to stop. For her to keep growing.
I remembered the odd case of my friend S. At 38 weeks, something felt wrong. She decided to mention it at her regular check up. The NST showed a saw tooth heartbeat on her son. She had an emergency C-section and her son was given blood transfusions. For some reason, her body started to drain all of his blood from his body. He is a fine 3 year old today.
There are so many stories out there. Good and bad. Right now, I am following Julia’s story. I am nervous for her, but holding out hope because good things can happen…
There is too much drama right now. I need a little less.
a sad goodbye September 20, 2006
Posted by spacemom in : Spacemom , add a commentTo my co-worker, RB. I am so sad. Please let your daughter know we are thinking of her. To lose a child before you meet her is unthinkable, yet it happened.
I am sorry.
