In the air tonight December 15, 2006
Posted by spacemom in : Depression , 5 commentsI am not sure the cymbalta is working. This is the second month, that shortly after I start menstrating, and I have a hormone crash, that a depression has set in. I want to grab my book, make a hot cocoa and hide. I want to cry. I want to be tucked away in a warm bed with Soleil and Luna and Jay snuggled in with me, but not have to deal with any of them.
I hate these feelings.
I feel like a failure
I feel like I should just hide from the world, my life, my responsibilities.
I feel scared because 75% of the time, this drug works, and one week a month, I crash and burn
I don’t like this. I don’t like this at all…
I am nuts… December 15, 2006
Posted by spacemom in : Kids , add a commentTomorrow, at this time, there will be about 15 four year olds in my living room. Screaming and playing. What the hell was I thinking when I decided to do a Hanukah party???
Remind me at some point to stop being so stupid about parties.
In other news, we rebooted our instrument last night just fine…except ANOTHER solar flare went off as we finished up the procedure. Sigh. But I got to be on the voice loops! SO cool! I love it!
Sorry this is such a short post. I was working pretty late last night and then had to catch up with Jay and the girls at a restaurant. And then I needed to bake the cookies I started on Tuesday.
Maybe on Sunday I can post something with teeth…
