Again??? January 6, 2007
Posted by spacemom in : Depression , 6 commentsIt happened. Sometime between 10 and 11 this morning. I was doing great and then it was as if someone put a large blanket of ick over me. The depression settled in. I am in a black hole of emotion.
Jay pointed out that this was the week we expected this. I know, but I still feel terrible. The whole voice in my head screaming loser is there. I feel soft, lazy, tired and a waste of cells, oxygen and space.
We took a walk and ended up at a play ground. I watched the girls play and Jay play with them. I am the luckiest woman in the world. The girls are amazingly beautiful, intelligent, almost have common sense, and love each other, Yet, my soul is empty.
I see my doctor on Tuesday. Let’ s hope we find a solution. I did increase my dose today, reluctantly…
