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Again??? January 6, 2007

Posted by spacemom in : Depression , trackback

It happened. Sometime between 10 and 11 this morning. I was doing great and then it was as if someone put a large blanket of ick over me. The depression settled in. I am in a black hole of emotion.

Jay pointed out that this was the week we expected this. I know, but I still feel terrible. The whole  voice in my head screaming loser is there. I feel soft, lazy, tired and a waste of cells, oxygen and space.

We took a walk and ended up at a play ground. I watched the girls play and Jay play with them. I am the luckiest woman in the world. The girls are amazingly beautiful, intelligent, almost have common sense, and love each other, Yet, my soul is empty.

I see my doctor on Tuesday. Let’ s hope we find a solution. I did increase my dose today, reluctantly…

Comments»

1. lisa - January 6, 2007

So sorry, I hope you find a solution. ANd share it with me! I get this, but not as severe…usually related to pms…

2. Krishua - January 7, 2007

I’m sorry, N. I wish there was something magic that would make it all go away forever. Hugs.

3. Mary-Mia - January 7, 2007

So sorry… Can’t do anything to help, but sending you big hugs.

4. Julie - January 7, 2007

So sorry this is hitting you again N… take care!!

Julie

5. Kikalee - January 7, 2007

Oh N. I’m so sorry. And to happen on a Sunday must really bite. Sending hugs as well.

6. Robin from TLOL - January 8, 2007

I’m so sorry you’re facing this. I hope the light at the end of your tunnel grows strong and bright again very soon.