Barely keeping my head below water* March 14, 2007
Posted by spacemom in : Life...otherwise, She Blinded me with Science, Depression , trackback* The title comes from a song called "W3t Dream"
Okay, this is my third attempt to write this post. Damn firefox keeps crashing!
I am trying to come up for a breath of fresh air. Fortunately, it is warm today (almost 70!) and the air smells sweet!
The early part of the year is always busy and stressful. The major space telescopes have their proposals due this time of year. HST is due in January, Spitzer is due in February and then Chandra in March. Tomorrow is Chandra’s due date. Thank goodness because all of the scientists hide away in their offices at this point and are busy explaining why their science should be done on these telescopes and what great exciting discoveries will be found. Ya, what-evah!
Jay is one of these scientists who hides away. Grrrr
On other fronts, my depression is being a royal pain in the ass and coming in and painting my world black. So bad that I am avoiding calling a certain blogger because my cell phone died while I was talking to her and I am too embarrassed to call her back. Sad? yes… I hide in the kitchen at night…
My soul is tired of everything right now. I need some free time, like time to be nothing… but it isn’t happening right now! Nor does it look good for later..
I am having issues with Soleil and Luna. Internal issues. Like being upset that they are who they are. How stupid is that?
Sigh…
oh yeah, I’m on a roll here!
I am just a barrel of laughs today, aren’t I? I should just go find myself a nice rock to hide under…
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I’m sorry! I wish there were something we internets could do, but all we can do is “be here” for you.
I always thought that the goal is to go out and enjoy the sun and not to hide under a rock… but then again, that’s what you are doing by posting, isn’t it?
Hope the darkness gives way to happiness, soon.
Must be something in the air…(hug!).
Okay, take a deep breath and exhale slowly, again, again.
Now, go to the refrigerator and find that chocolate candy bar you hid from the girls. Start eating woman. Don’t tell anyone you were enjoying that candy.
I am sorry you are feeling this way but you know you can join me out here in the West Coast. I live 5 miles from the beach and we can watch submarine races as we see the sunset. Email me if you need some cheering.
I’m so sorry that you are feeling like this friend. I wish I lived closer so we could go and grab some coffee and a cupcake from St@rbucks….have you tried those?
Remember, you can always call if you want to talk.