A lack of Sleep July 5, 2007
Posted by spacemom in : I dream of sleep , 1 comment so farFor almost a week now, I haven’t been sleeping. That’s not true. I sleep, but it takes hours to fall asleep.
I don’t understand it.
At first, I thought it was because I hurt my back. And the back hurt my legs. And I was aware of my legs at night.
I tried benedryl. I tried alcohol (which worked, but I don’t drink much). I tried a new age Zen music (at least then I was awake and not panicky)
I don’t know why this is happening, but I have a flight at 5am tomorrow. I have to get myself up at 3 and out by 3:30. And how do I do this when I can’t fall asleep until 1-2am?
I wonder if my body is finally caught up on sleep and is okay with 6 hours a night now. I can’t imagine that is it as I am exhausted now and it is 3:30pm.
I hope I figure this out soon. Not sleeping is tough
Sigh…
A mom’s guilt July 5, 2007
Posted by spacemom in : Travel, Parenting 101 , add a commentHoo boy!
The girls are working hard in the guilt department.
Soleil burst into tears last night when she realized that Luna and I were leaving tomorrow morning. She wanted Daddy to go. Or maybe she could come too. I explained that no, only Luna and I were going, not Daddy, not Soleil. The sobbing, the horror.
Later, Jay took her aside and explained the things they would do. She still complained that she would not be able to play with Luna over the weekend.
While calming and rocking her, I had horrible guilt. What if something happens on the plane tomorrow? What if something happens in NC? I want to promise her that I will return. I can’t guarentee that. I want Luna to grow up with her sister. What if something terrible happens?
I go through this whenever I go on a trip. I suppose it is better than in the past when I would just go into complete panic attack over getting on a plane, but still…
