It’s raining again February 13, 2008
Posted by spacemom in : Depression , 3 commentsIt’s been a while, so I thought I would give a little depression update.
To be honest, things have been good. I don’t mean "Little Mary Sunshine" good, but I am doing well in controlling the depression and feelings of despair. I kicked my meds up this week because I was alone with the kids. Jay returns tonight, so I should do okay.
My biggest issue remains time management. I have some other issues (body image, eating, self-esteem), but time management is the biggest issue I have to content with. I tend to get overwhelmed with what I need to do in life. Which turns on me. I start to panic over everything that has to get done. I panic over the simplest of things and then it snowballs into a disaster. I am working on this issue. It’s hard, but I am working on it.
I have found that the exercise is helping a great deal. I try to work out 4-5 times a week. I am focusing on strength training. I can see some incredible muscle development in my legs (as if I need it there! My calves are larger than Jay’s) and if I could lose some fat, I would look amazing! But, the best part of the exercise is that I feel CALM afterwords. Really calm. It helps so much and when I don’t exercise in 2 weeks, I feel terrible. The anxiety kicks back in and I just start to stress.
My current plan of depression control is this:
- Keep exercising
- Stay on the meds
- Accept that I can’t do EVERYTHING I want to
- Try to be good to me
And that is my depression update…getting better…

