Soup and Jelly Beans March 4, 2008
Posted by spacemom in : Life...otherwise, Depression , trackbackYes, that is my lunch today. I eat like Crap when Jay’s not around to check on me! 
Besides, I can only get good jelly beans during the Easter season. And peeps. Yes, my friends, it is that time of year again to horde peeps and let them get stale…mmmm… stale peeps…
Okay- enough of my freakish eating habits!
I’ve been thinking alot about depression and genetic ties. I have a family member (not to be named- Let’s call her Francine) who has been experiencing violent episodes and depression. She’s a teen, so there is this attitude of "oh she’ll grow out of it" that some people have. But…but what if she doesn’t? What if the depression I have always felt, the depression that I saw my grandparents deal with is genetically passed on to Francine? What if this is a life long struggle? How do you tell a kid "it’s okay. I spent my junior year of college wanting to hurl myself out the window of a 7 floor building and I’m okay. Except for when Soleil was born. And when I got pregnant with Luna. And after Luna was born and my meds stopped working." Yeah, there’s some hope for you.
I am considering working with my doc to deal with the fact that I will always have depression. It will wax and wane, but I will always have it. How do we tell our children this? Soleil will sometimes do small, minor damage to herself when she is angry. Things like digging her nails into her arm. I watch and suggest others ways to get her anger out. But, what if she has the depression too?
How do we deal with something like this when it is so damn hard to accept in our society? When people tell you to "just get over it"? When people say "it’s not that bad". How?
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I must delurk to ask if you have ever microwaved a peep? They grow and grow and then pop! It’s quite fun. If you have two small ones they seem to attack each other. The fun things you learn at Easter!