Damn it!

I just had a huge post written and then there was a great sucking noise as the computer decided to suck it out of existance.

Frick.

I am not in the mood to retype it all so I’ll leave things here:

  • Doing better mood wise, but still not sleeping
  • Had a great day with just Luna yesterday
  • Had to go to a harassment workshop today.Ugh
  • Thinking alot of many different topics from healthcare, to the markets (Hello Lynch America!-stolen from Omegamom)
  • Didn’t bring exercise clothes today…maybe I’ll go tonight

Tired…

If you haven’t figured out (if you don’t have the password), I am going through a spot of depression. I raised my meds. Lovely. To do this means I get insomnia. Honest to G-d lie awake in the bed insomnia. I was reading a book until 3am the other morning. Last night, I finally collapsed at midnight. Closer to a real bedtime, but when you aren’t sleeping, the rest of your life crashes down too. On top of depression. And the girls are mostly sleeping now (yes- add fist pump here)

Girl Scout season has started! Our first meeting is Friday! Whoohoo! 

So, maybe more tomorrow, but today? I am just really tired. 

Pop Quiz…part 2

SO when your children out grown sitting in the Cozy Coupe and you try to explain to them about balance and hanging off the side of the cozy coupe as it rolls down the driveway is a BAD idea, do you still get to say "I told you so" when the CC tips over and throws them onto the retaining wall? There was only a little blood and no broken bones….

 

Pop Quiz!

When your child decides to ride her scooter (3 wheel at that!) down a retaining wall, do you

a) Have a heart attack because she is 5 feet from falling onto the driveway?

b) scream "NO!" in slowmotion?

c) calming go out and explain why that is not a wise idea?

d) all of the above

 

Or How about this scenario?

You daughter hits the edge of the bike path and falls down. Her bike is pinning her to the ground. You noticed a large group of race bikers are coming Do you:

a) Throw your bike to the side

b) Heave her bike off her and listen to everyone asking if she is okay while you still can’t tell

c) Be calm and notice the patch of poising ivy on the side of the trail. Then gently place the bikes down away from the ivy.

d) A&B and want to tell the people asking questions "WHAT THE FUCK? HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW?"

(the answers in both cases are d, one child was hurt in the making of this post and she only has a badly cut knee and a crushed ankle. She rode home and was okay after some icing and elevation. G-d, I hope I don’t react to the poison ivy I tossed my bike in)

Hmmm, bad choice

Perhaps picking out "Thunder Storm" music to play my solitaire to when there’s a fricken Tropical Storm outside (yes, earlier today we had rain at a rate of 3 inches for hour! Lucky us, it only did that for 10 minutes!). I keep having to turn off the music to see if it is raining for real (answer, Yes, idiot…(me, not you readers))

I haven’t been writing much

Man, am I tired. I haven’t been writing much, either here, twitter or on my book. I feel bad. Leo and Claire don’t deserve to be left hanging (my book characters) What has been happening is life. I read a very disjointed and painful to read post be Misplaced Mama yesterday. It made my soul ache. I too feel that way right now.

I have two wonderful kids, a great husband, a great job, yet I don’t know where I fit in anywhere. Who am I? I can tell you of my convictions and what I stand for, but really who am I? (24601!*)

Right now I feel so lost. I am feeling, well alone. I want to sleep off life for a few days. Jay told me about a book at daycare he read to Luna. It was about a daddy who had to go away for a few days. The daddy took a raft down a river and while the first few days were nice, eventually, daddy needed to come home to his children who he started to really miss.

I need that. The raft. Taking me down a river where no one will bother me. I will miss everybody, but I need a few days for me.

But then again, who is this mythical me? I don’t know… Today? I really don’t know.

A political issue

Both the democrats and republicans are trying to say that we need to keep Gov. Palin’s daughter out of the media.

I disagree. We need to address teen pregnancy. This is REAL. Teens have sex and the girls get pregnant.

Real life. Not just to "sluts" and "whores", but to "good" girls and kids who have parents that love them.

The young Ms. Palin had a choice of what to do when she found out. A CHOICE. A LEGAL CHOICE. I keep reading how Gov Palin is "walking the talk." Bullshit. Her DAUGHTER is doing that. Not the governor. Ms. Palin found out she was pregnant and made the decision to raise the child and marry the father. 

The question I have for all of the anti-choice people who hide out under the words "pro-life" and "pro-family" is: Wouldn’t you want your child to make this choice too? To have the ability to do what you feel is the right thing? Ms. Palin HAD A CHOICE. Let’s keep it that way.

You want to keep this a "private family matter"? Not when Gov. Palin wants to take these private choices away from girls and women across the country.

You can’t have your cake and eat it too. Either teen pregnancy is a private personal choice OR it’s a public policy matter. Teens will get pregnant. We can’t stop that. We are biological creatures and we are programmed for sexual intercourse. How to deal with the outfall of teen sex, weather it is disease or pregnancy? That’s the issue. We CAN treat women and girls with respect. We CAN allow them to make the choices that are right for them.

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For the silly disclaimers:

1) I like life. pro-choice is not anti-life.

2) I think reproductive choices from having children, to having a vasectomy is a private thing that doesn’t need to be part of a policy.

3) If you believe abortion is murder, don’t choose to have an abortion.