It is just me, or is this winter getting to everybody?
Last night, the girls were all "mom, mom, mom". I had to fix some plots for work before this morning, so I was trying to fix that and get things going for bedtime. I get so torn. The girls want me to snuggle with them every night. But I am exhausted and want some time for me. But they are growing up and one day, they won’t want snuggles (Soleil already doesn’t like me to kiss her in front of her friends, so I squeeze her shoulder or just give a tiny hug in front of them). This is a horrible quandary.
I wrote to a friend of mine last night that I am so crispy. I am so worn out and so overwhelmed by everything in life. She replied that she feels like she is in quicksand. That is a great description of what it feels like right now. Quicksand. Running on ice. Up a creek without a paddle.
I haven’t exercised at all this week. It makes me feel icky to not exercise. I am 5 weeks into Weight watchers and I have lost 5 lbs, but I need to keep it up to get to my goal. And I need the exercise. When I don’t get it, I don’t feel as successful with the weight loss.
I wonder how much of this quagmire is from the length of winter this year. It is long and wet and cold and we still have a dumpster in our driveway. Does anyone else feel this way? (minus the dumpster…really, when it leaves it is spring.)