Ugh, rain and rain and more rain today. I need a nice sunny day. To be honest, I’ve been doing well on the depression front, but today does NOT feel like a good day. I am tired. Very tired. I had HORRIBLE nightmares last night (about a blogger, go figure) and then I woke up to a down mood. My co-leader for Girl Scouts is in disagreement with me over something for the girls and I don’t want to give in to her, but I see her points and the conflict is bothering me deep down.

I am planning on some exercise today. That should help. We also have an interfaith meeting at the temple tonight. I want to go because there have been more and more interfaith families coming to the temple and for a while, there was a push to convert the non-Jews. Sorry, that doesn’t fly well with me.

Last night was a long one. Soleil had a nightmare. About small pox. You see, a few weeks ago, I saw this very cool article about the flu virus and how all strains of the flu virus have a similar section of DNA. The group that was studying this wanted to find a way to destroy the virus by attacking that section, so it didn’t matter which strain of flu it was, it would protect us from the flu virus. Soleil was curious about this, so we talked about small pox. Jay got a vaccine for it, I didn’t. It is simply that I am 5 years younger and they no longer did the vaccine when I was born. Soleil is a nerdling (as is Luna) and she loves all things sciencey. She has been fascinated with viruses and microbes for a while. Last night, she was sobbing in her bed, afraid of someone breaking into the lab where small pox is kept and making the world sick with small pox. Then she wanted the scientists to stop work on the flu virus because someone might do that if we get rid of flu. Sigh…. It took a while to explain to her that small pox is well guarded and we know how to fight it. And then Jay gave her all sorts of examples of doomsday prophesies that just don’t come true! She finally relaxed enough and went to sleep.

Luna was a lunatic last night. Actually, all day. In the morning, she was pissed that Jay took Soleil to the bus stop and so she yelled at me and threw the couch cushions at me. Finally I threatened (in a beautifully calm mom voice) that I would carry her to the car with no shoes and seat belt her in if she wouldn’t cooperate. She screamed "But I am cooperating!" I asked if she knew what cooperating meant. She replied "NO! Wait I mean YES, but I won’t tell you what it means!" which roughly translated means "Up yours mom! I don’t know and I don’t care But I am doing it and I am 4 and I rule the world!" Sigh. Her night wasn’t much better, but I figure that isn’t so bad. She has a cold and I am terrified it will hit her ear. Again. Maybe I want it to so we can get tubes again. That really helped her when she was younger.

 BTW one of my favorite bloggers is hanging up the keyboard. Go say goodbye to Halcyon Mama