Monthly Archives: July 2009

Slowing down

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I noticed I went almost a week without a post! Amazing! Most of this is a concerted effort to slow down my life. I’ve been extremely stressed with the work situation. Then I found myself stressing at home. So based on my last post, I am forcing myself to slow. Yes, really.

Mondays are becoming a wonderful break. Our town, as I have mentioned, but it NEVER fails to amaze me, has a 4 day kindergarten. Luna starts kindergarten in the fall, but she and I will still have our Mondays together. At camp, it cost the same for 4 or 5 days, so I decided to send them 5 days. They love it, but they get tired quickly. I love it because I can get a ton done!

This past Monday, I was able to: work out with my trainer, go to the 9am telecon, clean part of the office/guest room/shit-hole//kitchen remodel holding area/disaster room, stain an Adirondack chair (the parts, now I need to polyurethane it) turn in $263.21 in coins to the bank, open 2 savings accounts (1 each ) for the girls and make a blueberry/banana smoothie. And I had nobody but myself to work with! fist pump! It is nice to have the time to myself. It is hard to carve it out, but when I can, it is nice.

I have been working hard at the gym lately (she says as she looks at the Hershey’s miniature on her desk). Let’s face it. I will never be a thin supermodel( I am built like a Molina). Nor will I have the 6 pack of steel, but I can and I will be in a healthy weight and a fit body. I bought myself a trainer for my birthday. His name is Matt and I hide him under the bed when not in use. Okay, he doesn’t live in my house, but he is cute. And buff! Woot. We meet every Monday for 30 minutes. He is seriously helping me build some muscle. Serious muscle. However, the leg muscles and butt muscles are still covered with lovely cellulite. ICK. I see the changes. I can do more. I am working out 4-5 times a week now (damn, forgot my gym clothes today so I will have to work out tonight).

I have also been reading "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince" in preparation for the movie. I read very quickly, and I read so often that minor plot details fall out of my brain and on the floor where they get swept away in placed in the trash. So I reread. It’s like being a fish with no memory. "hey look! on this side of the fish bowl, there’s a plant!, Hey look! A plant!"

 Wow, relaxed writing. This is nice. I wish I could get back to my book. That is where I need to add some serious writing.

How y’all have a fun day. I am signing off for now. And if you think I am not reading blogs, I am , just slowly and usually through a google reader….

 

Where’s the yellow flag?

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I thought a week of relaxing would be good for me. In fact, a week of relaxing WOULD have been good for me. Instead, we visited family. Which, as most people know, is never relaxing. In fact, I ended up developing insomnia the third night of the trip, staying up until 2-3 in the morning, at which point, my kids woke me up and I ended up on one of their beds instead.

We did the usual stuff with family, hung out at the town center pool, visited, played, Jay and I went out. The usual stuff. But I could not leave work behind. A work issue that I had not taken care of before I left town due to various circumstances was looming. I worked on the start of it Tuesday. I got an email at 5pm on Tuesday and that person wanted my status. When he saw my vacation email, he panicked and went over my head. My boss got upset with me for not doing this before I left and not telling people it needed to be done. I was FURIOUS. I had spoken to one of my teammates, I had it mostly set up for him, and lacking one piece I had this all ready for completion by the deadline. The whole thing set me off.

 I know, guys just say what they mean and get over it. I am still upset about it. I had planned to get it done on time, it WAS done on time and all was well. But I still felt frustrated.

Now we are back in town, the rain won’t let up and we are working on a new schedule. The girls are going to summer camp. This is actually really nice. I am glad they are there, but we are tired. All of us. We actually have set Soleil’s alarm clock for the morning. We have to be ready before we used to be to catch the bus!

What I need is the yellow flag. A pace car to come out and slow down the rat race we call life. I am trying to exercise more, eat better, get more sleep, but the stress at work is mounting (my teammate is leaving and the fact that we are currently understaffed is just making that fact more stressful). I need to plan my next birthday party (science party!) and get the invite out next week.

When does life slow down enough for everyone to just stop and smell the roses? When is life calmer?

sigh