Life is always a jumble in early September. Everything starts again: school, work ramps up, temple school, girl scouts, other activities, Jewish high holy days; the list goes on. Now that we are entering the end of September and have just one holy day left (Monday-Yom Kippur), I am finding things are slowing. We are still trying to get Soleil to stop trying to do everything in one day. I sometimes break out in a chorus of "Life in One Day" by Howard Jones to her. She hates that!

Unfortunately, she gets it from me. Yes, I try to fit everything into my life in several small packages and will often juggle more than I can handle. I have been trying to slow down mentally and physically. I don’t want to go back in time where the woman stayed home, I just want to relax more (hmmm. a Theme?) So I have been trying. My supervisor has not been helping and I am starting to learn how to say "No, I will not take your guilt trip". He has been jumping on somethings since early June and it is starting to annoy me. For the first time in 6 years I made a particular mistake of emailing the wrong list. He was all over me in minutes on that one. He’s done some other things like that. I need to learn to let him slide off. I can and have spoken to my senior supervisor if I need to, but I really don’t like it coming to that.

I get to play single parent this week. Jay is actually only 25 miles away in Boston. But he is staying in town as he is running a meeting. I am keeping it all together. Not sure how, but I am.

I really want to start working on my book again. I’ve totally given up on the 1month=1novel concept. However, I am exploring the ideas of the story and plot in my head more and I think I am coming up with a much more solid story. The one thing that worries me is that the main character commits suicide (not really a shocker, so IF I ever finish it and IF you ever read it? Yeah, forget that I told you). I recently read an article where the interviewee’s mother had written a 350 page book where the main character commits suicide. Um, yeah. Listen, NOT looking at doing this myself. I am taking a very simple true life story and filling in a hell of alot of the background that really didn’t exist. Isn’t it silly that I worry about this? Hmm, perhaps not. I was the mom of a 4 month old who didn’t want to tell anyone that I was running into post partum depression because I was sure that DSS would take her away from me.

Anyway, if I can find some time, I would like to work on my book some more. But not today. Because I am not going to live my life in one day.