The One About Coming Back

*taps microphone* Anyone here?
So yeah, I am going to try this blogging thing again. First and foremost, I have left my job and secured a new position. Unfortunately, I am not allowed to discuss what I do or where I work as part of my work agreement. Let’s just say this: I am in the same line of work, I enjoy what I do, I feel happier, but my stress isn’t all gone.

I am trying to come back. The past 4 years have been rather rough on me. Mentally and physically, it has been tough. The stress of work ate at me. I felt incompetent, stupid, and useless alternating with overpaid, overqualified, and overworked. Clearly, those feelings were contradictory. I wasted far too long trying to understand what I wanted, what was wanted of me, and my place in the universe. My boss was snide and rude. It’s clear that he never meant to be, but he was clearly full of issues in terms of women working. The last straw for me was the day I was told that if I quit working, my husband could take care of the family.

I had spent the last 2 years putting in applications to several jobs. Out of nowhere, it seemed, I was contacted to see if I was interested in a position that I had applied for in June. I said yes, and within a few days, I had an interview scheduled. I was told 2 days after the interview that they wanted me and within 6 weeks I was cleaning out my office.

Physically, I have been fighting my hypothyroidism. I am now in the position where I am betterish. I had been been getting worse and worse and being told to just get used to it. I am now 40 lbs heavier than I want to be. I have tried eating less, running more and exercising more. Nothing helped. My doctor told me to live with it. I asked to see a new doctor. I am seeing one of the top endocrinologists in Boston now. We’ve modified my medication and after 14 months, I finally got stabile numbers. Last week, I discovered my medication had been discontinued, so I am on a new med and I think it is a problem, but we’ll see in 5 more weeks.

As I said, I am running more. I have run two 1/2 marathons since January. In January, I ran the Disneyland Tinker Bell 1/2 in 3h10m. In February, I ran the DisneyWorld Princess 1/2 in 3h24m. I am very sad at the timing, but the Disney World one was far too crowded and I was stepped on early on (around mile 2). However, I finished. My goal is to increase my time. I run a long race at an average pace of 14+ min per mile. I want to be able to do a 1/2 marathon in 13+ min per mile.

Okay, that’s enough for now, but I am glad to be back.

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