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A hail of bullets

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  • Doing better from Tuesday, but I am still exhausted. An allergic reaction causes fatigue.I also still have a swollen tongue and throat which feels terrible at night.
  • If you really are all annoyed about peanut policies at your school/work/daycare? Screw it. Trust me, as the second time of going through this, you do NOT want anyone having to go through anaphylaxis because you insist on packing nuts. It is scary enough as an adult who understands what is going on, it must be terrifying for a child and for the parents.
  • It is pouring today. Finally feels like fall.
  • The house project is moving a bit slower than expected. The wallboard is up, but the plaster work that was to be done this week was held up due to another project. The hope is to get the floor in, sanded and coated next week.
  • Today is pretty quiet at the house. I may get a nap in if I can’t get my hair done.
  • T-Tapp is going. I stopped measuring and just decided to go for 12 weeks and then reevaluate. I am doing every other day with 15 minutes, although, when I can do the 50 minute workout, I do. I am not sure I am getting any body sculpting out of this (not yet), but I have to say my depression has gone down and if I can manage my depression through this sort of exercise? I can save some $$ at the gym!
  • The writing is coming along fine. I am 10% of the way through. Not bad for 5 days in. Oh, wait, that’s 10% of the month. Doh! :)
  • Girl troubles in grade 3 suck
  • My Girl Scout troop is camping this weekend without me. Yea! I get to relax.

Nocturnal horses

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Last night was a long night.

First, Jay and I have been having connecting issues. Not fights or anything like that, but life has overtaken both of us and we need to just be together a little. Last night was crazy between some scheduling issues and doctor appointments, we ended up going out to dinner. Then Jay put the girls to bed and I relaxed with my Wednesday night TV (Ghost Hunters and UFO Hunters).

Then Luna awoke at 11:30 (right during UFO Hunters.) and 12:15 and 1:00 and 1:45 and 3:00 and 3:35 and 4:30 and.. somewhere in her I slept in her bed for a while so she slept. All I know is that I woke in my bed and she in hers.

It was all nightmares. Of what? I have no clue. But she was nightmaring all night.

Man I hate this part of parenting. The poor kid is suffering and you can only rub their back and say that it is okay….

Sigh
 

sunshine

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I was going to post something bright and pithy. It’s a nice day and that usually puts me in a good mood. But I am not in a good mood. I think it is lack of sleep.

My parents arrived on Saturday, shortly before Jay, I and the girls returned from a party. I was pretty wiped out and wanted to nap, but my parents’ arrival changed that. The week was crazy, but for some reason, my parents have taken to going to bed around 8:30-9. So…that is before the girls go to sleep. The time that they were here, they did clean out my fridge and do the dishes. The picked up Soleil from the afterschool program twice. But when I asked for a night off, they couldn’t do it. Nor would they help with bedtime and putting the girls to sleep or read to them.

It was a frustrating visit. They stopped by only because they were in the Northeast. But still…. I’ve been getting to bed around 1am, and Luna’s been having nightmares so she comes in and sleeps with me. She’s not the calmest of sleepers.

So, I think this is why I am in a bad mood. Jay should land around 9pm and then be home by 10:30 (luggage and all that). My parents left this morning.

 

IF I have any readers left….

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Well, HI There!

Yeah, if I haven’t depressed the crap out of you yet and you’re still reading, KUDOS to you!

Doing better, but I still can’t sleep.

Anyhooo….I am starting to get a bit concerned about the economy. I mean, we’ve already switched to using our Discover Card to buy gas the past two months because we were getting a 5% cash back on gas pruchases until Sept 30. And we were all over that since we go and get gift cards from the cash back and buy things that we pretend are free! Like Soleil’s backpack this year.  With the embroidery, the monogram of our last name, it cost us a grand total of ….ready? $3! From Lands’ End, no less! Since we have a Sears with Lands’ End near us, I can call in an order and there is no shipping. Add the gift card from Discover? $3!

But seriously there are some problems here. How many bailouts is the government going to do? My sister has worked at a large bank since she was 18.  This bank deals with mortgages. What if she loses her job? What do people who are barely making it by do? What if this is a cold winter? In the Northeast, oil heat is common. I remember when we were on oil heat, we were PISSED when our oil went to $1.50 a gallon. HA HA HA HA HA! It is now between $3.70-$4.20!!!!

So what to do? I wish I had some answers. Will the markets crash? Just Wall Street? Or the Global Markets?

I am glad I asked the Girl Scouts to bring a can of food for the town parade. We’re donating what we get to the food pantry in town. We need to do something, and this is a start!

Damn it!

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I just had a huge post written and then there was a great sucking noise as the computer decided to suck it out of existance.

Frick.

I am not in the mood to retype it all so I’ll leave things here:

  • Doing better mood wise, but still not sleeping
  • Had a great day with just Luna yesterday
  • Had to go to a harassment workshop today.Ugh
  • Thinking alot of many different topics from healthcare, to the markets (Hello Lynch America!-stolen from Omegamom)
  • Didn’t bring exercise clothes today…maybe I’ll go tonight

Tired…

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If you haven’t figured out (if you don’t have the password), I am going through a spot of depression. I raised my meds. Lovely. To do this means I get insomnia. Honest to G-d lie awake in the bed insomnia. I was reading a book until 3am the other morning. Last night, I finally collapsed at midnight. Closer to a real bedtime, but when you aren’t sleeping, the rest of your life crashes down too. On top of depression. And the girls are mostly sleeping now (yes- add fist pump here)

Girl Scout season has started! Our first meeting is Friday! Whoohoo! 

So, maybe more tomorrow, but today? I am just really tired. 

A better day

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Today is the FIRST DAY OF FIRST GRADE! Very very exciting. Last week we met the teacher, Mrs C. Today, Soleil climbed on the bus with our new neighbors and waved goodbye as she rode away. Sigh… I will try to post photos later. She is so excited to go. I am bummed that the first 6 days are half days, but eh. What can you do?

Now that it is fall, we are getting back into our crazy activity schedule. Soleil is doing violin, Saturday afternoons. Luna has the choice of doing ice skating (because she is so upset that Soleil passed the last level and she didn’t) and I signed her up for gymnastics (read run around happy for 45 minutes) and then we have swimming Monday afternoons. We’re only doing the first session of swimming followed by  the second session of ice skating. Sigh. So busy!

Fall does this. It rolls all of the fun things together and makes it one busy pile of goo!

I have been working with Jay to update our Google calendars (yes, we share them with each other) and then we work from there…

Today is a better day. I upped my meds, but this leads to insomnia, so I have to fight that then…..

Up to 10,000 words on my book! 1/5 of the way there! 

The morning after

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Rough rough night in the space house. Luna developed a croupy cough. She even vomited up during one cough. Not the "stomach bug" vomit, but the "I’m coughing so hard I have to vomit" one. Poor thing. She would only take Jay to hold onto.

Then Soleil came in at 1 in the morning with the SAME cough. EEK! Jay wants to know how long I locked them outside while he was gone! (I didn’t) This morning, the daycare teacher told Jay that several kids have this cough, so clearly Luna caught it and shared with her sister.

It was nice to have Jay back. We are far more disorganized with two of us. I don’t know how I am more organized alone, but I am… 

Sunday, Soleil will be consecrated as part of the Hebrew school. She is very excited and has been learning the Sh’ma, one of the holiest prayers in Judaism (it basically is the declaration of one G-d, not three parts, just one) and she sings it EVERY NIGHT. (I am personally getting sick of it). Her grandparents are making a special trip to come and see her because this event is so important. I really don’t know much about it and I keep reading  ‘consecrate’ as ‘concentrate’ as if she were a can of orange juice. Oh well, at least I made Jay promise he would be in charge of their religious training if he wanted Jewish children.

I have an acupuncture appointment this weekend. Wish my pincushion body good luck! And I plan on starting the dress this weekend. Measure and cut the fabric! :) Promise I will take photos!

 

Where’s my jacket?

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I am looking for my jacket. You know, the little white one that ties in the back?

I ended up volunteering to be a co-leader for Soleil’s Daisy Girl Scout troop. And since I am one of the few who were not afriad of computers, I am running the Yahoo group.

 Yeah, this is what I needed. More work. Way to go Nance!

 

Next up: learn how to smash one’s head into a wall while juggling kids, husband and a spacecraft